Long Conversations

So today i went to Melissa's house to get my headphones and ended up spending an hour and a half having a long conversation with her. To be honest i loved it. i prefer the long conversations between me and one person rather than a long conversation between several people. I mean between two people you can talk about so much more, you can express yourself more. for example if theres more than one person and your only confident with a couple of them, then your only gonna be able to express yourself less than you would than with someone you were confident with. the only thing i hate between long conversations is the 10 second awkward silence pauses. These were common between me and Mel, probably because we were both thinking of something to say but I don't know. So our conversation was mainly about college and family however i didn't really care about what it was about all i really wanted was to spend some time to Mel. She told me that she hated school, which shes been telling us for a while, but i honestly don't know what to say to that. i can't tell her to quit and not bother, i can't tell her to get a life and cope with it. I try to help but i just end up asking questions that make me seem like I'm going on. What do i do? My mum says tell her to see about changing to a college but i don't know if you can actually do that. The thing is i want to help and don't know what to do. 

I Dont Know

Right, i don't know why I'm gonna write this but i have to put it somewhere. So ever since Saturday my minds been spinning with thoughts. not new thoughts, old thoughts, thoughts i believed had gone and weren't due to come back. Thoughts about a girl. And all because of one conversation. I left these thoughts behind a while ago as i knew that this girl wanted nothing really, however the thoughts may have been behind me but the feelings weren't, they were always there every time i saw her, every time i thought of her, every time i talked to her. I think its the feeling that kept the thoughts in my mind, not visible, hidden behind a wall of sadness. the only thing i knew, was that wall would be broken sometime, no-one can be sad forever, there has to be something that makes them happy or gives them that tiny bit of hope. That might be the case or maybe I'm just gullible but whatever it is, it doesn't matter, the walls been broken and the thoughts are out. Thoughts of "what if", "If only" and "why". She might know I'm talking about her, she might not, she might not even read this, but the only thing i know is, I Love Her, i always have and i always will. She may not like it, She may not care but i can't control how i feel, and to be honest i don't want to. 
If you read this and actually do ask yourself "is he talking about me?" your probably right, theres only one person that this could actually be and that would probably ask themselves that question. if you are that person then I'm sorry, i can't help how i feel and like i said, i don't want to, i just had to find a way to say it, and this is the best i can do.

Days Get Worse as Time Goes On (14/01/2010)

Well today was interesting, kinda. So i had no college until half 1 because of my exam. I woke up at 7 to get ready to meet Craig at 9. Yes two hours is pretty long to get ready but i wanted a coffee. Once i met Craig we set off into town to get the bus and guess what... I had to get a TJ again, i wasn't happy :(. Anyway we got into town and waited for 15 minutes for the 537 but it didn't turn up so we waited an extra 8 minutes for the 343, that didn't turn up so we decided to get the 503 which we had to wait 8 minutes for. We got into Huddersfield for half past 10 so we went into the town center. We went into the kingsgate market, i looked in a Office and ended up buying some new trainers then we spent some time looking in HMV. After that we set off up to college. We caught the 371 just by the bus station and got off at the sainsburys stop near college. Just as we were getting off the man in front of me turned away from the bus and hit his head into the wing mirror of the bus, it was hilarious but i felt kinda sorry for him as well. Anyway we went into sainsburys so Craig could get a pen and then went into college. We went on the computers and messed around for a while. i completed a game of solitaire in 5 minutes because I'm awesome then i showed Craig the tuition I'd be paying for studying at University of central Florida and he laughed, as i expected. So when we went for the exam and it was easy i think but usually if you find an exam easy it just means you missed the hard bit. well anyway I'll find out when i get the results. So the exam had finished then we set off home and the whole day just got worse. The first bad thing, well it wasn't exactly bad it was just annoying, was the school next to our college had finished just as we were leaving and the whole street and field outside college was full of kids, snow balls were flying everywhere, i got hit three times i think.So we popped into the shop onto the way down to the bus stop and buy Pepsi, and when we get to the bus stop a bus just drives past. When we eventually got a bus it was a single decker and had hardly any seats available so we had to sit on fold out seats. A couple of stops through Elland near to the brooksbank school, 4 chavs got on two lasses and two lads. the seats available meant that the two lads were sat a few feet away from us.  The two lads started staring at us and whispering to each other, which wasn't a good sign, then we get to a stop just a few stops away from town and the two lasses get off, they asked if the lads were getting off but one of the lads stayed on saying arguing with the girls saying so the other lad stayed on as well and the lasses stormed off. just before we reached the town center the me and Craig got off the bus and shortly behind us was the two lads which had just told the lasses they were going to meet them at the bus station which the bus was going to anyway. I realized that something bad was gonna happen so i started walking quicker than normal, not realizing Craig wasn't walking as fast. i turned and looked and the lads were walking with Craig talking with him, he eventually caught up a bit and all i heard was Craig saying "No I can't" we carried on walking and one of the lads kept saying "Give me your phone" and then he added "You better give me your phone before we get past this road or I'm gonna drop you". The other guy didn't really say much he was like a duck following his mother. so we get into the town center and I'm still a few feet in front of Craig and the guys still following Craig and telling him to give him his phone, i honestly didn't know what to do. i was at the bus stop we were heading for by the time Craig had stopped outside a takeaway with the two guys. He seemed to be doing something with his phone, taking the sim card out and memory card, i felt like such an idiot but what was i to do, me and Craig aren't really ones to be fighting and as Craig said on the bus journey back home he'd rather give them his phone than get beaten up. 

Well today sucked and i feel really sorry for Craig and i feel like i could've done more to help. What could i have done?
Well Craig's being very optimistic about it, maybe i should take a leaf out of his book.
As i always said "I Hate Chavs" and now i think Craig agrees with me.

Snow College today XD (13/01/2010)

Well today was boring. I didn't want to go to college so i got my mum to ring in for me, yeah I'm lazy. Anyway Craig went in just to find out all the buses had were stopping after he got there and that the college was closed, i did pretty good at deciding to stay at home. College is also closed tomorrow however it makes no difference to me because i have an exam and i wouldn't have had to go in until the exam anyway. So today i didn't do much to be honest, i walked my brothers down to their school, then went home and sat on the computer for a bit, watched top gear on TV and listened to music for a couple of hours. I really should have been revising. Yeah, so today i haven't got much to write about hopefully I'll have more for tomorrow but i don't know. Anyway bye for now.

Happy Birthday Melissa XD hope you had a great day.

College Day and Exam (12/01/2010)

Well, today was really a normal college day, except the fact i had an exam. So the usual bus journey in the morning, revision for an hour before the exam, then sit the exam. so got into the exam finished it in normal timing and left as soon as it finished. I don't know about you, but have you ever been through an exam after you've just done it and realized "Shit... that was a stupid mistake" well anyway thats what happened to me at the second to last period when we went through the exam in my business lesson. Well anyway i think i failed, luckily we get to re-sit. the lesson straight after the exam was software, which was ok, the program we have to write is pretty complicated but i was starting to get used to it by the end of the lesson. So because i finished one period before Craig on a Tuesday i had to wait, so i decided to go onto a computer and do a bit of research into studying in America. I found it helpful but i also found out its gonna cost me a fortune :/. Anyway the bus back from college was ON TIME, strangely, however we still got back the same time we usually do. When i got home I've spent most of my time doing some more research into American studies and also I've been on Facebook and Youtube catching up on subscriptions as usual.
Well anyway thats it for today bye.

Can i ask do you actually find these interesting because to me there not actually interesting, it might just be that I'm writing mostly about my daily life and because it's mostly things i do often i don't find it as interesting as you.

Crappy bus service and Snow day at home XD (11/01/2010)

Well, my days been quite a boring day, what a surprise. Started of normally, late to get up as usual. anyway woke up at 5 to 6 when i should have been up at 5 and needed to be at Craig's for 6 so i was pretty far behind, rushed around for ten minutes trying to get all the stuff i needed for college and eventually was ready and out the door by 10 past and at Craig's by 20 past. So we went to get the bus, stood there for about 25 minutes until a TJ Walsh, a small van with seats in, pulls up. I Despise these buses, I don't know why, i just do. Anyway we get on that and get into town on time to get our normal bus the 539. so we're on the bus from 7 to get to Huddersfield for about 20 to 8. luckily just before we get off the bus Craig gets a text from college saying that it is closed due to bad weather. the bus driver let us stay on but he didn't exactly have the happiest of looks on his face. Got to bus station for about 8 o clock maybe 10 past to get the 503 a soon as we got there it took us till 20 to bloody 11 to get back into Halifax the traffic was that bad, we could have walked quicker. anyway so when i got home i spent most of my time either on the computer or beating my step dad on Forza 3. Apart from the bus journeys the day was pretty dull even though bus journeys aren't exactly the most exciting things to happen in life are they? Well anyway that was my day today hopefully tomorrow might be a bit better but now I'm gonna get down to some revision for my exam. Bye

This is a TJ Walsh bus. A red box on wheels that only just fits about 30 people on. And for anyone who knows me i think the ridings school minibus is better than one of these things XD

What Made Me Decide To Start This.

Blogging wasn't something that i saw as inviting if you get what I mean. My Friend said i should start one but i wasn't to keen on the idea because i wasn't sure what i would be putting into them i i still don't know what I'm going to put into them. the reason i did decide to start one though was because of a person on Youtube called Charles Trippy. He does a daily vlog similar to a blog but through a camera and posts it on Youtube. it shows his daily life. I've watched most of these vlogs and there are lots of things which when he gets older he can look back on and see some of the wonderful things hes done. One video log i think he will look back on most and enjoy the most is this one

After i watched this i just felt like i wanted something that i could look back on and reminisce on past events which i may not remember.

I feel kinda sad for posting this but i felt like i had to write it down. Am i sad? 

My Life and My Friends

Hi, Well my life isn't the most perfect of lives but its what i make with it that counts to me. I live in west Yorkshire and I've been living here for 4-5 years now since moving from north Yorkshire. during these 4-5 years I have developed great friendships with several people. These people mean the world to me and I'd be lost without them. I could probably write full length stories about each of them but I'll just give you a short couple of sentences about them.

Mel - Well she's one of the people which i started getting along with at the start of my last year at high school, and still i feel like I've known her for years. She really is a great friend, i see her as someone i can talk to about almost anything. 

Jess - Jess is someone who always seems to cheer me up, she's also someone who I've only really known for just over a year. She always notices if somethings wrong with you and always makes the effort to find out what it is and try and help make it better.

Max - Max is an awesome friend who's always happy, he's someone you can never seem to be upset or feel down around. He's kinda of a crazy person as well but thats one of the things that makes him who he is. 

Craig - Craig is the person I've known ever since i moved to west Yorkshire him and Martyn. He's a good friend. We go to the same college and do most things together at the moment, he's someone i can talk to but not about everything.

Jay - Well Jay is a good friend however we never see each other these days, i think the last time i saw him was when we went to see new moon. ever since we left school no-ones hardly seen each other but i think I've seen jay the least. 

Ben - Ben is a strange friend, Hes someone who can either be really annoying or really nice. He is mostly the nice person but on the occasion he can be the annoying person. when he's the nice person he is someone which you can talk to about things which you cant with other people but thats only certain things.

Abi - Hmmm what to say about Abigail. Well Abi is a friend who i don't always see. i mean she goes to the same college as me and we see each other and you get the odd "hi"..."Bye" and thats it. Shes one of the people i only started to get to know properly at the start of my last year in school but i don't think i know her as well as the others. When i do talk to her properly she is a great person to talk to but the times we talk now is a lot lower since we left school

Martyn - And last but not least Martyn. Well he is someone you can talk to about many things and he is one of the people i have known the longest. however there can be disagreements between us. all in all he is someone i value as a good friend.

All of these people are people i value and hope they value me in a similar way. I hope that we stay friends for as long as possible and i want them to know if we lose contact at any time they will not be forgotten.

Well...First Blog Post I Guess (10/01/2010)

Well Hi, I'm Ash. I haven't really got much to say and I'm highly doubting anyone will read this but, anyway i might as well give it a go XD. Well, I'm an English College student, living in Halifax.  I really have no idea what to put on this. My friend told me to write one a couple of weeks ago but i wasn't really sure whether too, but I've got nothing else to do really so this is it. Today wasn't really much of an interesting day, same old, same old. The usual day in on Facebook, Youtube and now a Tweeter. Yes i am that sad. Well I don't have much else to say, I'm gonna give this thing a go and see how things work out. Bye for now.